This is my attempt at keeping a steady flowing blog, but I am not making any promises. At age 25 I find myself the newly engaged mother of a 10 month old boy ( Caiden Jay ), and expecting baby boy #2 in 6 weeks ( give or take ). It is incredible how much my goals, my outlook, and my life in general have shifted since meeting my fiancee Behn.After a very short ( but fast paced and love filled ) courtship we found ourselves expecting our first little surprise and since then life has been a whirlwind! I cannot promise how much time I will be able to devote to this blog journal - I like the sound of that much better blog just sounds too silly for some reason - since I am pretty certain my life will be very hectic the next oh I don't know year or so? Very soon I will be drowning in diapers and my days will be completely consumed by caring for an 11 month old and a newborn, but maybe I will find solace and peace of mind by keeping track of our crazy journey - and I know I will enjoy having this to look back on one day. I am really unsure what to talk about or how to get into this - maybe I'll go look at other blogs for inspiration and direction. My life consists of my son(s) and my fiancee so that is what you should expect to hear about most here. I promise ( myself ) to be as honest and forthcoming as possible ( even if it gets me into trouble! ) I do not want to look back on this and see everything sugar coated or altered. I have no intention of offending anyone but I'm sure I probably will ( people always find something to be up in arms about ) - this journal is for me which is a foreign concept as of late I no longer have anything that is just mine anymore. I do not find myself missing my freedom ( to come and go as I please ) and even though I hardly ever buy anything for myself ( when I actually have money that is my own that is ) I don't miss it - I've always been a people pleaser and enjoyed putting others first and making sure they felt loved and secure and often times this bites me right in the ass! At least now I have a family to devote myself to and that is truly rewarding.