Yet ANOTHER crazy night!

Went to the hospital at 10 PM last night. I had a repeat of the same pain I had last weekend awful chest / back / and upper stomach pain. They took blood to check and see If it could be my gallbladder and everything came back normal. The midwife had a hard time finding my cervix to check it but said I seemed to be .5 % dilated and highly doubted I was in labor. After being here for a while they said the baby was " text book perfect " and " exactly what you want to see " and that they were only seeing small sporadic contractions . I started feeling the really intense pain again and they took me off of the monitors and told me to try walking around to see if that would help which it didn't my pain was so intense in my ribs and back and it didn't let up for an hour! I vomited a few times in the bathroom. By the time the on call dr came in to check on me the pain had slowed down a lot and he was planning to discharge me he told us if I had a repeat of the pain to come back in and to call my dr in the morning to follow up and ask for an ultrasound for my gallbladder. Behn kept insisting he thought I was in labor and wishing they'd hook me back up onto the monitors and when my back pain returned again he asked me to please just ask to stay longer since the pain was already back instead of going home and having to coming back so I did and they hooked me back up to the monitors and the midwife checked me again and said I was now 1 cm dilated and 60% effaced and having some contractions but they were not regular but they decided to keep me over night to see how / if things would progress since my cervix was changing. They hooked up an IV and told me I was not allowed to eat or drink anything until someone told me otherwise. At 4 AM we attempted to get some sleep they gave Behn a cot and he was sound asleep within 10 minutes I on the other hand could not get comfortable for the life of me and I noticed my contractions were starting to get a lot lower and more pelvic. I had contractions off and on all night and in the morning they sent me for an ultrasound to check on my gallbladder. The woman who administered the ultrasound was a bitch and refused to fix my IV for me when it kept leaking and eventually it detached and she told me it was only saline in the IV and she doesn't " do IV's " they checked all of my organs above my belly button and she was KILLING me while she was doing it omg it hurt so much! Then she refused to show me the baby because the Dr. " didn't order anything on the baby " but checked the heartrate for her paperwork - bitchbitchbitch! She had the radiologist come in and she told me that they did see gallstones but didn't think I had any inflammation so she didn't think it was very serious right now and she'd talk to the on call Dr. and have her get back to me. I went back up to my room and they had to start a new IV in my other hand because my first one was disconnected for so long so I now have two achy hands! The on call Dr. for L&D came in to talk to me and checked my cervix I was 1 cm dilated and 70% effaced - no major changes. She went on to tell me that a lot of people have gallstones and it never gives them any trouble but when I explained to her that this was the second time one of those attacks had happened she told me she'd talk to the surgery team and see what they recommend and they might want to keep me over night again and monitor me and not allow me to eat or drink anything for 24 hrs which is almost a death sentence to a pregnant woman! The woman from the surgery team came in and talked to me and told me there was no inflammation and since I was so close to full term that they wanted to put off having surgery until after the baby was born but if I had any more attacks to come in right away, and also that my white blood cell count was high?! They discharged me and told me to keep an eye on my contractions and if they became regular or more intense to come in. It was a very long and exhausting night for everyone involved but the little one is still inside baking for hopefully a few more weeks!

35 weeks & counting!

  I am officially 35 weeks pregnant today and its still hard to believe another baby is coming! I feel as though this pregnancy is never going to end ( but I felt like that with my first son too ) it's just hard to envision no longer being pregnant and having a little baby here. I have about 5 weeks (ish) left in this pregnancy, and then I am taking a long hiatus from being pregnant and going to enjoy my boys! We were looking into cottage rentals today for the Old Orchard Beach trip! I am so excited to go up this year hopefully it'll give us a chance to relax and be carefree! My parents are incredible I know they will watch the boys at night so Behn & I can have a chance to be a LITTLE irresponsible for the first time in almost two years! It will be strange to have my body back to just myself and to no longer be responsible for another little life - I think it will be bittersweet. A part of me will enjoy the freedom but I will also miss being pregnant. I am also excited for Caiden to see the beach again and be able to do more this year, and for the new baby to visit the beach for the very first time in his entire life. It will be fun to be surrounded by family and I hope it's a drama free vacation (psh). Last night Samantha won the family pass for the Ecotarium and gave it to Behn & I to enjoy with the boys - such a sweet girl! We are going to bring her with us when we go but we think we will wait until spring / summer to use it. I am going to relax while Caiden finishes up his nap I am feeling extra sore and tired today. It gets rough carrying a little person around in your pelvis all day!

Crazy Night

It was the craziest thing it all started with a backache last night very low in my back I thought it was sciatic nerve pain and tried to sleep it off. I woke up with what I thought was terrible heart burn ( which I've experienced a lot with the end of this pregnancy ) and the top of my stomach was hurting really bad too. It woke me up at 10 and I tried drinking lots of water and using the heating pad a little on my chest to alleviate some of the pain. It didn't work though and eventually my back started aching and tensing up and even my ribs were hurting! Pretty soon I started feeling as though my stomach was having really intense muscle spasms / charlie horses and a few minutes after it'd stop my back would start mimicking the same pain. I ended up vomiting quite a few times - which I neverrrr do not even pregnant! At 1 AM it wasn't getting any better and nothing I did could help so I called the hospital to talk to the on call Dr. to see what I could do to give myself some relief. He told me it sounded like contractions - which I didn't think they were because they were so high up and I know real contractions are down low in your pelvis. Well he told me if I had more than four in an hour to come in so at 1:40 we went to the hospital. Of course as soon as we got there whatever had been happening stopped completely and I was SO embarrassed! They brought me to labor & delivery and hooked me up to the monitors anyway and monitored me from 2 - 4 and none of the same pains happened again. They did an internal exam and my cervix is still closed but the baby is head down and in my pelvis. I just hope whatever it was doesn't happen again. The on call Dr. told me some people can experience labor for weeks. My mother had to have her gallbladder taken out a few years ago and told me that what I was describing sounded a lot like the attacks she was having. I have an OB appointment tomorrow so I am going to mention it and ask if there is anyway they can check if that is what might have happened. I've had a really bad backache all day but no stomach cramping or tightening. Whatever I was experiencing felt a lot more intense than when I was in labor with my first son. I was just so embarrassed that everything came to a stand still when they hooked me up to the monitors! The baby's heart rate was great though and he was moving A LOT the Dr. on call told me she thinks I have a " wild child ". When she did an external exam she said she thought his head was on one side of my body and his feet were on the other - transverse. Then a few minutes later when she did an internal exam she said she could feel him head down and in my pelvis she was shocked lol He is very active! My cervix is closed though and no sign of dilation or thinning. I will definitely be talking everything over with my Dr. tomorrow though and hopefully figure out what happened.

    This is my attempt at keeping a steady flowing blog, but I am not making any promises. At age 25 I find myself the newly engaged mother of a 10 month old boy ( Caiden Jay ), and expecting baby boy #2 in 6 weeks ( give or take ). It is incredible how much my goals, my outlook, and my life in general have shifted since meeting my fiancee Behn.After a very short ( but fast paced and love filled ) courtship we found ourselves expecting our first little surprise and since then life has been a whirlwind! I cannot promise how much time I will be able to devote to this blog journal - I like the sound of that much better blog just sounds too silly for some reason - since I am pretty certain my life will be very hectic the next oh I don't know year or so? Very soon I will be drowning in diapers and my days will be completely consumed by caring for an 11 month old and a newborn, but maybe I will find solace and peace of mind by keeping track of our crazy journey - and I know I will enjoy having this to look back on one day. I am really unsure what to talk about or how to get into this - maybe I'll go look at other blogs for inspiration and direction. My life consists of my son(s) and my fiancee so that is what you should expect to hear about most here. I promise ( myself ) to be as honest and forthcoming as possible ( even if it gets me into trouble! ) I do not want to look back on this and see everything sugar coated or altered. I have no intention of offending anyone but I'm sure I probably will ( people always find something to be up in arms about ) - this journal is for me which is a foreign concept as of late I no longer have anything that is just mine anymore. I do not find myself missing my freedom ( to come and go as I please ) and even though I hardly ever buy anything for myself ( when I actually have money that is my own that is ) I don't miss it - I've always been a people pleaser and enjoyed putting others first and making sure they felt loved and secure and often times this bites me right in the ass! At least now I have a family to devote myself to and that is truly rewarding.